So this is just what I have been thinking about this evening. I got a call from best buy stating that I have orientation tomorrow, but I never really wanted to work another retail job... so i just got all worked up and just freaked out.
So now I do not know what I want to do with myself... i mean i don't mind working retail but I just have such a strong hate for it and i never want to do it. but i can put on a face at work and be a different person. I'd really like to utilize my cubicle experience and work in a clerical environment, but i can't seem to find a job doing that.
Ideally i'd just work early in the mornings stocking somewhere... there is a job at menards doing this and I called to tell them I was very very interested... hopefully they call me back.
I'm just tired of having to dread going to work... i understand that it is part of life, but I'm so temperamental and I have a short fuse... so it is hard for me to go into a position like this with an open mind.
if anyone can provide some information or words of advice i would greatly appreciate it. i understand there are far worse things than this... but i just feel empty inside.